$$$ Vs Happiness....

I am the type of person who doesn't really care how people think about me.  I just do things which I think is right, bring no harm to others and most importanltly, I find satisfaction on what I have done and feel happy with it.
It seems natural that money is very important than any other things in life.  The more money in hands means we feel happier.  We can have what we want and do what we want.  In actual fact, i don't feel it that way. 
To me, having a job which is of your interest and can earn relative income to give you the basic needs of life, having some extra for your leisure, use some as investment and keep some as savings....that's good enough. 
I always tell my children, though I don't earn like business people do, I don't have to worry about the risk of making a lost or stress on not getting good returns for what I'd put in.
I have my own house, a car to drive, eat out if I feel lazy to cook, and most of all, I can spare a little time for GOD.
I don't buy a big house and I am having a house just enough for a small family.  The thing is I am going to fill my home with love, care, peace, understanding and forgiveness.  I don't drive my dream car.  I am driving a car whcih I can afford to buy, after all the main purpose is to bring me to the place where I want to go. 
I bring my family for breakfast in different places every Sunday after mass. 
Our life is no worse than those getting more pay than me.
My monthly income is considered "average" at this age but appear "good enough" or even "better" in the eyes of other people.  I dare to say I can manage my family well even with that "average"earnings.  Besides handling everything in the family on my own, I also contribute to my mum's home stay expenses and she has been bed-ridden for more than 10 years with an average montly expenses of RM3k all in.
I feel proud of myself as till now I have never failed my responsibility as a mother to my children and a daughter to my mother.
My sisters are far better off than me but they always have lots of complaints.  I don't see the luxurious possessions make them happier.  They seem to have everything, but I have a feeling that something is missing. 
My children give thanks to the little things that they acquired, or sometimes going to a place where they have never been there before, you can see the excitement in their eyes.  I feel happy because my children know about appreciation and thanksgiving. 
When my sis see this, they will ask me:  your children are funny ha?  Why are they getting satisfaction so easily?  Err.....speechless
Every parent is the same.  They all hope to see that their children will be successful in life.  I also pray that I can provide the highest education to my children so that they can be successful one day, in their career life and marriage life. 
When both my children told me that they don't like doing science, I feel a little disappointed but then it doesn't mean that not doing science they can't be successful.  It just narrow down their choices. 
A lot of people asking me why I didn't force jane to take Accounting?  better future, earn more money wor..
I don't want her to do something that she doesn't like for the rest of her life just for the sake of me.  I am getting old each day and will be called back home sooner or later.  Young generations still have a long way to go.  I use to tell them:   for whatever you do, be honest to yourself.  Study hard and at least get a degree to earn you a living.  At the same time serve God and you will get unexpected returns.  You may not see it now but you will realize it one day.  I don't mean to say serve God because you are expecting some returns from Him.  Trust Him and serve Him and you will find your life is very much beautiful and peaceful.  Most poeple think that acquiring money and status makes us feel satisfied with life but unfortunately it doesn't.  Most of the sulking, miserable people that we meet in everyday life are rich people.  The misery that these people go through is not because they don't have enough money but due to the fact that everyone seems to have more expectations from money.  Of course money is important to help us live our life to the fullest.  but at the same time, an increase in its inflow does not bring proportional happiness with it.  Are we aware of this?
Let's see things from another perspective, if we can get a chance to become rich and wealthy, why not?
With money we can help more poor people who really face hardship in life.  We can help churches in momentary form other than giving our time and services.  But bear in mind that when we are rich, lets control our money and don't let the money control us and make us lost.
What i say here may not be correct or applicable to all.  I am only giving some true facts that happen around me.  In life, we can't expect smooth road all the way, there are bumps that we have to overcome in order to get through. 
Take up challenges in life.  Whatever happens, we are the one who choose how to react to the situation.

I asked God, "How do I get the best out of life?"
God said,
"Face your past without regrets.
Handle your present with confidence, and prepare for the future without fear!"

Jee, Happy Mother's Day~~!!!!!!

Jee!!!! This is for you with love~~~~ ^^ 

You are the best for me, Liang, Pa, all your relatives, friends, and all those who love and treasure you...

Thanks God He made you and gives you to us.... :')

Only with you that we have a happy, warmth and nice home, you bring us all one, as a family.... 

I just want to use this blog to wish you a very very Happy Mother's Day.... 

Expensive gifts are in-affordable, this is the one and only cheapest way i can think of to show my appreciation to you.... ^^

 

Jee, you are very important to us, you are the trunk of the family.... 

I wish you a happy, healthy, safe and fruitful day... 

May God loves and protects you always no matter where you are and what you are doing... 

I want to let the whole world know this~~~~ 

 you very very much~~~

Jee~~~~ I am proud to be your daughter! :') 

You are the best! 

累了。。。

当梦不想再做，故事不想再说。。。

我只希望回归原点。

The Boss from HELL

Everyone in the workplace calls him mad dog. He is the boss from Hell.

He treated us like dirt. He has no shame and make no effort to hide his bullying behaviors.
He is slowly killing us!!!

Do you know what does a bully and sperm have in common?
They both have a one-in-a-million chance of becoming a human being.

In another word, he's not a human being. The nickname "Mad dog" fits him perfectly.

Family Photo~~~

Nice or not? Surprise!!! =) Happy New Year 2012~~~

We are happy family~~~ xD

SSPCA

My colleague Ling asked me to accompany her to a place - SSPCA.
I was asking: What is the meaning of SSPCA and what does it stand for?
She answered: You just follow and you'll find it out yourself.
This is my first time going and the moment we reached that place, there is a big signboard -
The Sarawak Society for the Prevention of cruelty to animals.
Oh, so we are coming here.
Few months ago, a pregnant stray cat went into her house and gave birth to 3 kittens. Now she's troubled with these cats pooping in her neighbour's garden, pissing everywhere, spoilt their plants.....so on. Her neighbour has been complaining and mentally harassing her to abandon the cats.
There are hundreds of cats and dogs there waiting for adoption. They would be put to sleep if nobody adopt them. Sometimes we human are really cold and heartless.
After a short visit there, there is no words to express my feelings.
Myself and both my children had a painful parting experience when we kept hamster as pet. Then on, there is a rule in our house : NO pet is allowed.

posted by : ellepo

Try hard to be in your shoe

最近我和大姐的沟通出现了一些问题。

一直以来，我都是在扮演“听”的角色。我尝试以你的观点去了解你的心情和处境，用耐心和爱心去明白，关怀你。而且也尽量配合在精神上给于鼓励。但是我不能避免偶尔在想法和理念方面会和你有所不同。当我给以一些不一样的意见时，你的情绪就会突然的转变，一下子失控。好好的一场姐妹谈论，往往就变成了辩论，然后你就会把我过去无心的错误，一下子全搬出来指证我，最后闹得不欢而散，把彼此之间的关系搞得很僵。

我每天都有很多的事情要处理，还要拨出时间去聆听你蔢媳之间的问题。我每次都有配合，很用心去听，甚至试着去穿你的鞋子（虽然我不可能穿的下）。

对不起，也许我是太理性了。如果你再找我谈，我会试用感情进入你的内心世界里。

我真的很在乎我们的姐妹情。

也许会搁上好一段时间吧！

Posted by: ellepo

i m sick...

I am sick, of being me....

That's embarrassing!!!

Know what? I broke Jane's bed.

The weather last night was damned hot. I turned on her bedroom's air cond., relaxing myself on her bed. Half-way on facebook enjoyed viewing Tionia and her sweeties' Australia trip photos, I heard a loud sound and suddenly found myself was tumbled down.

Oh! Oh! The bed is broken!!!

I took a close look at the bed and found that a few pieces of the long, thin piece of metal attached to the main support were broken. The metal parts are all welded and not screwed to the main support. It's obviously not built to stand my body weight!!!Lao Lao quickly used nylon string to tighten all the broken metal pieces to the main support for temporary use or else Jane has to switch to sleeping on the floor.

When seeing this, Liang was talking humorously to himself: pity your bed la cheh, not only it has to support giant size human, it has to accomodate all those animals that spread around you. Sigh......
Oops, I'm sorry.

Jane, that's embarrassing!!!

posted by:ellepo

Legal Festive Robbers

I was stopped by a police at a road block yesterday afternoon and he accused me for not having my seat belt fastened.
I had been using a seat belt since the very first day I drove a car irrespective of police presence. Don't you all know that I am a good citizen and I comply to the traffic law? For my own safety benefits too....
The police kept asking me the same question : You just answer me, did you use your seat belt?
Inside my heart : What a stupid question? See with your own eyes la....my seat belt is properly, comfortably worn....
I answered him : YES
He kept repeating the same question and my answer is still firm : YES
Emm..... I got it! The smell of corruption......
They are just the "legal festive robbers"

Monday Blues!!!

I hate Mondays.....
I am feeling so reckless and do not have the mood to do anything.
I've yawned countless times since this morning......
My head is getting heavier
My eyes can hardly open
I feel very tired and weak
Oh! Am I getting sick?
Or it is just Monday Blues???

posted by: ellepo

SAD

My emotions these few days are beyond control, going up and down like a rollercoaster.

Out of nothing, there'll be a sudden anger outburst and the problem is I hurt the people I love the most.

I'm feeling pretty sad. I know it affects all of us and quite disruptive in a way to our life pattern.

Tell me, anyone?

What should I do???

posted by: ellepo

???!!!

Life is never easy.....the pain, the evil.......
And too many things to handle....
conflicts, health issues, relationships, unmet needs,
financial issues... arrrh!!! stressful and frightening,
ageing family members....need increase care and planning.....

What am I supposed to do?
Worry, depress, cry, go round and talk about it?

NO!!! Let's fight the battle......
live a simple life - living one day at a time
accept the things that I can't change
appreciate what I already have
practice to be more humble
take up life challenges
and most importantly
TRUST GOD & PRAY TO HIM

posted by: ellepo

3.1.2011 - Not A Good Day

今天心情糟透了！

原本以为新的一年，新的开始 ，新的发型，新的装扮，统统换新的，希望今年会比去年好。

可是一天里，接二连三的消息传来都是离别，而且个个都是工作好拍挡，喝茶好伙伴。

Probably today is a sad day for me. (sorry i have to continue with English as i can do it faster)

Early in the morning, I started with counting my dear colleagues who are going to retire from the work place - Lim Da Ge, Lau, Bang Lan, Glo....

Then Bang Lan informed me that Ling Ling might be leaving, followed by the news that Cil and August will be leaving soon to another unit.....

Oh no, the group is getting smaller again!!!

I was the one who asked for inter unit transfer in the first place due to the distant from home to office. It ends up almost everybody is going, leaving me behind with Liew and all those people who I am sick with.

My request was not entertained due to the importance of my job functions. My boss said he can't release me. Some idiots stay back eventhough boss wanted to let go of them so much but no unit wants to take them. What the heck does it mean? I have to work with all those idiots who only know how to talk big and act sweet, doing nothing and count down for "Agong's Day" only every month?

Sad, very very sad.....

Bidding adieu to a close colleague is often heartbreaking. But it is a fact that I must admit in order to move on with life.

So sad that you all are leaving soon. This work place won't be the same anymore. I' ll never forget the happy moments, the arguements, the coffee breaks and the gatherings.....
Seriously, I'll miss all of you. That's so very true.

I wish you all plenty of smiles, blue skies.... now and always. Be healthy and happy wherever you go, whatever you do.

posted by : ellepo

Winter Solstice, 冬至

冬至, Winter Solstice Festival - a big day for the Chinese to get together, making and eating of tangyuan, 汤圆.

This is one of Jane's favourite traditional Chinese dessert and she used to make them with ama when she was young.
This year, she insists to try on her own. She started with the simplest type, unfilled tangyuan served with a sweet broth. She has Michy to help her to roll the dough into small balls. I can see these 2 young pretty ladies were having fun.
She also cooked chicken rice without taking my help. I was so impressed the way she and Michy cut the apples, cucumber, onions and chillies for the salad. The best part is that they did not mess up the kitchen. The kitchen is kept so clean after the cooking except an unexpected accident caused by me, this "lao tai po" =p
Oooopsss.....I m sorry.....
Let's see the food....
The tangyuan are too big and tasteless, but it's a very good start, good try...
The chicken rice, the chicken, the salad....emm..... yummy!!!
O.o, we forgot to take pics of the rice and the salad, not very keen in taking photos....

Rich, the food she cooked may not turn out as well, but she has spent the whole morning in it with love and passion. She told me that you have been working very hard in shop, must give you some home-cooked food rather than all the time eating cheap stuff. "Sayang" you oh!!!
Both of you are still young. Keep learning of whatever is part of growing up.
May you have sweet memories of growing up together....
Love u 2....


posted by:ellepo

My Office PC is DEAD!!!

Yesh! My office pc is dead.
I was doing material reservation. Half way through, the power was suddenly switched off by itself...... no noises, no lights.....nothing, completely silent, completely dead.
My pc must have worked too hard until it got heart attack. It's high time to take a rest. Not only the pc, the person who is using it every day - ME!!!
I don't want to end my life just like that!
I still have a lot of things in my mind yet to be done.
I need a rest.
For those who read this blog, don't be surprised why I still can write blog. I am using my princess's network, hahaha.....

posted by: ellepo

Dumb Bitch!!!!!

I'd inherited an incredibly stupid but at the same time was really stubborn subordinate in my workplace.
He is so confused and dumb, beyond salvation. Needs spoon feeding and reassurance all the time and yet can't get the simplest job done.
Why do I need an assistant in the first place if I myself am solving all the problems delegated to him?
Just a 3 days 2 nights travelling - doing the simplest delivery of stock ..........arrhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
How much problems he has created for me to settle already? I can't even have a peaceful talk with the doctor in the clinic. Forget about the MC, I don't think I can have a good rest.
I thought today he will come back safe and sound so that I can have a peaceful weekend. Oh no!!! Something happen again.............
Sigh...... you dumb bitch!!! You have made my life very difficult at the workplace. It's been such a stressful time even since I accepted you to work under me. I get fed up and tired of solving your problems over and over again. You are an adult and a father of three, you should know how to handle your problems without using up all my time. Do you know that I feel so annoyed and unlucky having to deal with all those kind of things?
@#$%^*+*^>

posted by: ellepo

Puzzle???

I am feeling tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally.......really tired.
Its not easy to maintain positive relationships with my siblings though I have been trying real hard. Why? Just because they have better life and can never put themselves in my shoes?
Tensions.....we can no longer communicate nicely. More often our conversations will end up with a fight. But do you know that behind every fight there is a reason? Why are all the arrows pointing at me only? Because I am the youngest? I can't even defend myself when I am being penalised. I am rebellious when I stand out for my rights.
Feelings are hurt............ my heart aches...........
All of a sudden, I think of you, mama.
Mama, I miss you very much.
You are the only one that I can have heart to heart talk. You are using your tough life experiences to understand my problems. You are a truly honest caring mama.
Talk to me, answer me....... I beg you, mama........or just open your eyes and look at me, that will be enough.
I don't have energy to stand any longer, I am falling........

posted by: ellepo

Proud of You, Ah Liang!!!

My boy Ah Liang, the Corporal of BB Boys organised a 2 days 1 night fun camp in Lundu over the weekend for around 30 people.

He took charge and arranged the whole thing including preparing food for all the officers and juniors who joined in the camp.

After coming back from the camp, he started to help me with preparing dinner every evening. I am very glad that Ah Liang is starting to take interest and responsibility with food.
Thank you Liang for preparing all the home-cooked food. They are simple but nice to eat. I also can relax my mind from tiring and hectic schedule in cooking food everyday after coming back from work. One thing very important to me is the hidden love and affection behind the food that you cooked.
I feel very proud to have you as my son.

You are a good son and an excellent cook! Hey, fit and good looking some more. Cool especially when girls read your wall messages in face book ha. (Tell you all a secret, one of his friends asked him to publish some cool and emotional phrases to suspend girls......O.o, I once thought it was true.....^.^)

Anyone? Want to try his cooking? I'll send him round to you if you want, hahaha......

Who ever marries him in future, "chap tou" wor..... who will be that lucky girl is yet to see!!!

Here are some of the food that he cooked......
Look healthy, colourful and nice to eat......

posted by : ellepo

"Chao Chao"

I have a patch work baby blanket knitted by Ama when I was still a little girl. I call it my "chao chao" (kiddy Hokkien: smelly) which I can't live without. I refuse to give it up though it's a little torn. I find it cooling and most important of all is the special kind of weird "smell"... my smell... xDDD Hmmm... I am in my paradise!!!

Dear has a habit. He likes to hug his own and my jackets (lazy day), saying he likes the smells. He even put it against his face and inhaled deeply. O.O!!!! He is smelling my jacket and that is the sweetest sight to me. From there, I suspect he should have some kind of "chao chao" too. O.o??

Yeah, my guess is 100% accuracy!!! Dear has a "chao chao" too, but... hahaha, i never expected it to be... Oops, I am not going to reveal anything here, I will keep it as a secret.

But to tell you the truth dear, your "chao chao" gives me a warm and very homely feeling. ^~^
Bring it along with you to Australia when you go for studies...... at least you have something to hug, to help you sleep... (until the day you come back to me... then I will be your "chao chao" xDDD)

Sometimes, the smallest action or thing in life can really make a wonderful day and put the sweetest smile on our face. '~'
Look around you, do you have a "chao chao" too? xDDD

Posted by: Wing