"Chao Chao"

I have a patch work baby blanket knitted by Ama when I was still a little girl. I call it my "chao chao" (kiddy Hokkien: smelly) which I can't live without. I refuse to give it up though it's a little torn. I find it cooling and most important of all is the special kind of weird "smell"... my smell... xDDD Hmmm... I am in my paradise!!!

Dear has a habit. He likes to hug his own and my jackets (lazy day), saying he likes the smells. He even put it against his face and inhaled deeply. O.O!!!! He is smelling my jacket and that is the sweetest sight to me. From there, I suspect he should have some kind of "chao chao" too. O.o??

Yeah, my guess is 100% accuracy!!! Dear has a "chao chao" too, but... hahaha, i never expected it to be... Oops, I am not going to reveal anything here, I will keep it as a secret.

But to tell you the truth dear, your "chao chao" gives me a warm and very homely feeling. ^~^
Bring it along with you to Australia when you go for studies...... at least you have something to hug, to help you sleep... (until the day you come back to me... then I will be your "chao chao" xDDD)

Sometimes, the smallest action or thing in life can really make a wonderful day and put the sweetest smile on our face. '~'
Look around you, do you have a "chao chao" too? xDDD

Posted by: Wing

Water is my friend... ^~^

After that not long ago traumatic incident in Sematan, I never thought i will gain courage and strength that fast to step in to water again... It was impossible for me to do that without you...

"Water is your friend dear... Be brave! You can do it... Slowly do... You need to get use to water first... Slowly... " you taught me step by step even though I failed a thousand times... Grabbing you very very tight until I left fingerprints on your arms and shoulders... yet no complains from you... aaarrrgggghhhhh!!!! stupid @jane... Sorry dear I let you down... ==

Seeing you being very patient towards me, teaching me how to breathe inside the water, throw my pipi and saliva out... (hahaha! thanks dear dear... I think I know the practical part already...) I had a very strong determination to learn well and not to fail... I dont want to let you down, for you, I tried... ^~^ (I appreciate you for not letting go of my hands even for a single second...)

So scared, until my stomach and legs cramped... == Lousy indoor girl... xD

Dear, I am really touched at that very moment... You are really patient with me... Not a single complain from you though you have to repeat yourself many times but I still cannot make it...

I feel bad for complaining you coz of not fulfilling my small wishes sometimes... I am cruel as compared to how you treated me... =(

Yes! Now water is my friend... I think I have conquered that fear... (i think only... still need more practice... xDDD)

Dear, are you prepared to get swollen arms and bruises over your shoulders again? If you are, then I am ready!!! xDDD Let's go Kolam Renang!!!!

Posted by: Wing

我家佬佬

星期五下班回家看到大门开着，心想生活虽然过得忙碌，可也蛮幸福的。女儿不在家时，佬佬也会在我到家之前的五分钟把大门先打开，让我可以直接把车驾进车房里去。

打开车门刚要下车的时候，看到一大堆的狗粪呈现在眼前，还是新鲜刚出炉的啊！一定是隔壁家最近领养小狗的藉作。我口里一边骂小狗，哪里不好做大生意，偏偏把财送到我家门口，一边忙着把皮包，水壶拿进屋里，然后再出来做清理工作。

当我再次回到车房时，看到佬佬戴着口罩，手拿一大堆的旧报纸，蹲在那把狗粪给清理干净了。看到那一幕， 心里真是很感动。感动是因为你帮我做了一件我不太愿意亲自下手做的事。二来是觉得你的健康有进展了。一向来忙忙碌碌的你又回来了， 不再软绵绵的躺在一旁， 不说话， 不做事，也不理会任何人。

佬佬， 虽然你现在什么都做不了，但我希望看到你健康。 你一定要加油哦！我永远支持你！

posted by: ellepo

18 November??? O.O!!!!

"What is the date today?" you asked me in the open lab this morning...

"Em... 18 gua..." As soon as the the answer flew out of my mouth, my heart started to pound more quickly and harder...

It is already 18 November 2010!!! Time flies... Remembered our first sem life when we were still like lil kiddos... We played and fooled around with other friends in the group. And it is funny when we both played hide and seek, not admitting that we had fallen for each other.

Entering second sem, we walked hand-in-hand as couples. I am proud... To have you around with me, drive me around everyday, help me in this and that, to carry my stuff and all those, I feel touched everyday by your little but warmth actions towards me. You care for me, love me and pamper me like a baby... I walked proudly with my nose up thinking that: My boyfriend... Richmond... Jealous??? xDDD

We stay together everyday, school works, assignments, friends, activities, even when we have conflicts or arguments, you never leave me alone but to settle everything with me. You are always by my side even when I scolded you very badly... You are patient enough to cope with all my short-tempered, lousy computer skills and being so fragile that i barely can take good care of myself...

And today, is already 18 November... We are finishing sem two and moving on to year end... The moment today's date came out from my mouth, I looked at you... You are smiling so innocently, looking at me... I felt like crying...

Dear, I am scared... To tell you the truth, I am reluctant to let you leave. How I wish you would stay behind for me or to let me visit you once in a while when you leave Kuching... But I know that this will be impossible... I want you to have brighter future, so I have to let go... Let you go to have higher level of education and come back to me after that... But I really cannot bear with the sadness... Even when I think of it... I am so useless har?

Know what? Since the start of this month, I am practising very very hard... I try not to love you too much... Try to be cold blooded... But I failed... I then train myself to be stronger... I tell myself that the day when you really leave Kuching, I will send you off in the airport without flooding the place. I want to give you the best memory of @jane, so that you will have that memory to stay on until the day you come back to me... Again, I failed... And I failed badly... I cannot even hold my tears now when I am writing this... My pyjamas is already half-soaked... What more to say on that very day when I have to send you off... I wonder...

What our future will be no one knows... No one can predict... We can only leave everything to God and it is up to Him to decide... But I am glad that at least He arranged us to meet and let me have you that closed to me...

Life is a wonderful miracle... I can only pray hard to Him that we can really last... Pray that we can handle all obstacles very firmly and will insist on going back to each other when the time has come...

@jane love you dear dear... Hope we last...

Posted by: Wing

Weird Worker

Most of my colleagues are pretty normal and we all get along well in the office except one - the resident witch.....
She created information about me to cause me harm so that my position in my workplace is shaky. She backstabbed me so many times.....
I never want to explain because we are all adults and moreover I feel my contributions are being appreciated in my workplace.
I am very sure that I did nothing wrong. The only mistake I made is I am more committed to my work, more flexible, smarter than her in handling our daily work.
Whereas for her, the only thing she can do is to act sweet. 50 years old woman to act sweeeeeet???? t">b@$*#>t....

posted by : ellepo

My Cell Phone is GONE!!!

All these while I have been using second hand or recycled handphones from both of my sweeties.
I always get something that is economy and practical for myself. I don't get things that I like or something of my dream because I "sayang" my sweaty hard earned $$$. (kedekut the Malays call me)
Just 2 months ago Jane said to me : Jee, get a new cellular phone for yourself. You have been working so hard, should love yourself more. Buy the model and pattern that you like. Don't always pick the handphones that we are going to throw due to some defects. You really need a good one as all your official calls are directed to it.
Wah! this girl, sounds like an old lady, my old mama.
Sometimes I tend to spend on something desirable that is not a necessity because of what she said. But have a feeling of enjoyment and satisfaction. Thanks Jane. Remind me to spend occasionally but not too often or else my budget burst, both you and liang have to take "sweet potato porridge" for most of the time. Haha...
Yesterday I accidentally dropped my handphone in the toilet bowl. And you know what? I picked it up with my hands because it is only 2 months old and this is the first time ever in my life I bought a handphone of my own choice.
Arrrh.........eventhough the toilet bowl was relatively clean, it wasn't a pleasant experience at all......
I have decided to buy a cheap phone with simple functions than to get the latest cell phone model with all the new additions and features.
I am sure Tay will say something again about my phone when he see me using it.
Who cares?
I am happy with it.
Bye bye my beloved Nokia! (I don't know what model, ask the new generations, they know)
I'll get another old and reliable Nokia phone with simple design and come with only the most basic features. I am not going to make any more investment into an expensive high tech phone that I probably never know how to use.
Most of all, I'm afraid the same incident will happen again. Who knows?

Posted by : ellepo

Tired? Just Me!!!

I am super busy with bunch of office work to get done lately.
Seriously, I am jealous of my colleagues who can just sit there, doing nothing, relax, on the phone..... (sorry, no offence)
The distribution of job functions is obviously not fair. You know more, do more. Sometimes just how much I wish my respond can be a little bit slower, more care free and less responsible. But I can't. I am just not that type of person.
I am very struggling. I am feeling tired.
"Tired"? - not a powerful word to describe how I feel.
I am wounded - physically and mentally.
I am battered, broken and bruised.
It's just like a never ending story....
but I am determined to stay on........Just for you.......the two of you!!!
Pray that everything will be going on smoothly for me, everything.......
GOD Bless.........

posted by : Ellepo