"Chao Chao"

I have a patch work baby blanket knitted by Ama when I was still a little girl. I call it my "chao chao" (kiddy Hokkien: smelly) which I can't live without. I refuse to give it up though it's a little torn. I find it cooling and most important of all is the special kind of weird "smell"... my smell... xDDD Hmmm... I am in my paradise!!!

Dear has a habit. He likes to hug his own and my jackets (lazy day), saying he likes the smells. He even put it against his face and inhaled deeply. O.O!!!! He is smelling my jacket and that is the sweetest sight to me. From there, I suspect he should have some kind of "chao chao" too. O.o??

Yeah, my guess is 100% accuracy!!! Dear has a "chao chao" too, but... hahaha, i never expected it to be... Oops, I am not going to reveal anything here, I will keep it as a secret.

But to tell you the truth dear, your "chao chao" gives me a warm and very homely feeling. ^~^
Bring it along with you to Australia when you go for studies...... at least you have something to hug, to help you sleep... (until the day you come back to me... then I will be your "chao chao" xDDD)

Sometimes, the smallest action or thing in life can really make a wonderful day and put the sweetest smile on our face. '~'
Look around you, do you have a "chao chao" too? xDDD

Posted by: Wing

Water is my friend... ^~^

After that not long ago traumatic incident in Sematan, I never thought i will gain courage and strength that fast to step in to water again... It was impossible for me to do that without you...

"Water is your friend dear... Be brave! You can do it... Slowly do... You need to get use to water first... Slowly... " you taught me step by step even though I failed a thousand times... Grabbing you very very tight until I left fingerprints on your arms and shoulders... yet no complains from you... aaarrrgggghhhhh!!!! stupid @jane... Sorry dear I let you down... ==

Seeing you being very patient towards me, teaching me how to breathe inside the water, throw my pipi and saliva out... (hahaha! thanks dear dear... I think I know the practical part already...) I had a very strong determination to learn well and not to fail... I dont want to let you down, for you, I tried... ^~^ (I appreciate you for not letting go of my hands even for a single second...)

So scared, until my stomach and legs cramped... == Lousy indoor girl... xD

Dear, I am really touched at that very moment... You are really patient with me... Not a single complain from you though you have to repeat yourself many times but I still cannot make it...

I feel bad for complaining you coz of not fulfilling my small wishes sometimes... I am cruel as compared to how you treated me... =(

Yes! Now water is my friend... I think I have conquered that fear... (i think only... still need more practice... xDDD)

Dear, are you prepared to get swollen arms and bruises over your shoulders again? If you are, then I am ready!!! xDDD Let's go Kolam Renang!!!!

Posted by: Wing

18 November??? O.O!!!!

"What is the date today?" you asked me in the open lab this morning...

"Em... 18 gua..." As soon as the the answer flew out of my mouth, my heart started to pound more quickly and harder...

It is already 18 November 2010!!! Time flies... Remembered our first sem life when we were still like lil kiddos... We played and fooled around with other friends in the group. And it is funny when we both played hide and seek, not admitting that we had fallen for each other.

Entering second sem, we walked hand-in-hand as couples. I am proud... To have you around with me, drive me around everyday, help me in this and that, to carry my stuff and all those, I feel touched everyday by your little but warmth actions towards me. You care for me, love me and pamper me like a baby... I walked proudly with my nose up thinking that: My boyfriend... Richmond... Jealous??? xDDD

We stay together everyday, school works, assignments, friends, activities, even when we have conflicts or arguments, you never leave me alone but to settle everything with me. You are always by my side even when I scolded you very badly... You are patient enough to cope with all my short-tempered, lousy computer skills and being so fragile that i barely can take good care of myself...

And today, is already 18 November... We are finishing sem two and moving on to year end... The moment today's date came out from my mouth, I looked at you... You are smiling so innocently, looking at me... I felt like crying...

Dear, I am scared... To tell you the truth, I am reluctant to let you leave. How I wish you would stay behind for me or to let me visit you once in a while when you leave Kuching... But I know that this will be impossible... I want you to have brighter future, so I have to let go... Let you go to have higher level of education and come back to me after that... But I really cannot bear with the sadness... Even when I think of it... I am so useless har?

Know what? Since the start of this month, I am practising very very hard... I try not to love you too much... Try to be cold blooded... But I failed... I then train myself to be stronger... I tell myself that the day when you really leave Kuching, I will send you off in the airport without flooding the place. I want to give you the best memory of @jane, so that you will have that memory to stay on until the day you come back to me... Again, I failed... And I failed badly... I cannot even hold my tears now when I am writing this... My pyjamas is already half-soaked... What more to say on that very day when I have to send you off... I wonder...

What our future will be no one knows... No one can predict... We can only leave everything to God and it is up to Him to decide... But I am glad that at least He arranged us to meet and let me have you that closed to me...

Life is a wonderful miracle... I can only pray hard to Him that we can really last... Pray that we can handle all obstacles very firmly and will insist on going back to each other when the time has come...

@jane love you dear dear... Hope we last...

Posted by: Wing

Elleby's hair = Mango seed???

Yesterday...

Jee cut a few mangoes brought back by Pop...

@jane : Hey dear, come and eat mangoes... It's very juicy, sweet and contain high fibre...

Rich : Ok... ^~^

@jane : You take the seed and leave the rest to Pop... xDDD

Rich : Wah quite nice and sweet ... Long time didn't eat already...

A few minutes later....

Dear giggled and I saw him looking and playing with the seed... turned the seed up and down, laughing to himself... O.o???

@jane : What happen to you??

Showed the seed to me... kept laughing...

Rich : Elleby's hair!!! hahahhahaha~ X.X

So naughty this Dear...

Elleby : My hair!!!! xDDDD

Elleby's hair = Mango seed??? What do you think??? =p

Posted by : Wing

23 Oct 2010 Saturday night

A memorable date...

Friends from first semester gathered and had dinner in Sharing Planet. It was a nice place and all of us enjoyed our dinner before it turned into 'displayed food'. xDDD

First of all, a thousand thanks to the organising chairperson @Jane... =p "No problem... It's just a few messages and the effort to press all of your hand-phone numbers plus facebook message... hahaha!!!" hey but this is really worth it... It was a great meet... Hope to have another one soon... =)

Mal and quiet Bryan... Sharing Planet is a wonderful place. I enjoyed the car racing part when you guys lead the way. xDDD *honk honk (@ling's mini Kancil)

Jacqueline is forever the same... So lively and happy... Miss you very much.

New hair cut for our manager... Oi nice oh... Suit you... Finally, you let the 'barber' play with your long curly hair... =P Thanks Wei Zhong for leading the prayer.

Voon, Bong, Derek and Tzi Perng... You all are still very naughty and playful...

Woho!!! My dear dear is still the champion for arm wrestling... xDDD Wei guys, train harder... swim, gym, jog bla bla bla whatever... Find ways to beat him (that's not what I want actually... hahaha!!!)

Anyway, I appreciate and want to thank all for turning up... (+ Joko)

That ah Kong ar... went to Santubong and leave us behind.... ==' Nevermine... Bom him if he doesn't show himself for the next gathering... hehe...

Somehow, something happened that night after the get-together... That was only between me and Rich... (it's confidential~ ^~^)

Dear, when I received your call, the first thing I wanted to do is to rush there to see you as soon as possible. Be there with you even if there is nothing I can do to help. I never realised that you are getting very important to me. Getting to know that I have occupied a very important place in your heart too (the first person you think of when you are in need), I now strongly believe that our relationship has eventually blossomed into a very powerful love. I also firmly accept that everything happens for a reason. For had I not going to Swinburne (which was never in my list of choice after SPM), I never would have met you... ^~^

Posted by: Wing

You Light Up My Life

So many nights

I'd sit by my windows

Waiting for someone

to sing me his song

so many dreams

I kept deep inside me

alone in the dark

now you've come along

you light up my life

you give me hope to carry on

you light up my days

and fill my nights with songs...

rolling at sea

adrift on the waters

could it be finally

I'm turning for home

finally a chance to say

hey, I love you

never again to be all alone

you light up my life

you give me hope to carry on

you light up my days

and fill my nights with songs...

It can't be wrong

when it feels so right

coz YOU...

you light up my life...

~LeAnn Rimes

Posted by: Wing

Simple Love~

Couldn't really say why,

I become very initiative...

Anything is worth doing when I fall in love with you...

I want to announce loudly,

That I can't bear to be apart from you...

Even my next door neighbours can guess my feelings right now.

I want to watch the sunset together with you until we fall asleep.

I want to just hold your hand this way and not to let go.

Can love be forever innocent without sadness?

I want to play comp games with you...

I want to watch movies with you..

I want us to sing without worries as we walk along...

I want to just hold your hand this way and not to let go.

Can love be simple without pain?

You leaning on my shoulder,

I sleeping on your chest...

This kind of life- I love you and you love me...

I want simple love,

I want everlasting bond...

I feel warmth and happy being together with you...

Your considerate and little actions make me touched...

I love you dear~ ^~^

Posted by: Wing

Handicapped? ELLEBY!!!!!!!

NO!!!!!!!! Who broke your arm, Elleby?

Ellepapa? O.O?? No lar... Ellepapa loves you very very much... He hugs you too tight maybe... XF

Ellepapa, have to handle precious little Elleby with extra care and love... He is as fragile as Ellemama... Hahaha! ^~^

We love you Elleby!!!

Don't worry Ellepapa, Ellemama loves you more... =p

Elleby: Hey!!! Not fair...

Ellemama: XD

Ellepapa: '~'

Posted by: Wing

A hard worker?! xF

My dear says I am a hard worker... To me he is a hard worker too!!! ^~^

He is hardworking in helping Pupps. Working in the shop during holidays and weekends... Thumbs up for my dear! He is a filial son. Pupps sure loves him very much... =)

Dear, I appreciate the way you made me smile... ^^ The way you are anxious about my essay and other subjects... The way you feel worried for me when I had to change and redo my essay... The way you want to help fight with the lecturer to gain back my topic... (It's okay dear... I'll try a new one. I'll be happy with you around. ^^) The way you pamper me and help to lower the rope we have to cross it everyday... The way you help to find my flower... (I am sorry I dropped it again... =( It was a nice memory... Walking around to search for it...) The way you show your love and care... I am touched...

You laugh then I laugh lo! XD I like to see you smile and hear you laugh... So be happy everyday yea? Cheers!

Posted by: Wing

Separated. . .

A brand new start for all of us in our second sem!!!

Today was supposed to be a very happy and exciting day for all of us in Swin. However, things seemed to turn the other way round. . .
Guess what? We are all separated!!!! All of us from Group 16 and some from 15 as well. . . It was only more than a month's holiday and things changed drastically. . .
First of all, our Group 16 manager Wei Zhong left us and decided to go back to Form 6 with his new hair cut. . . Leaving us, all the little chicks behind him, our curly haired manager went without any last word. . . No more fun and surprises in everyday's live without him. . .
Followed by his very best supporters, Ah Kong and Ah Bong. It was 835am lesson time and I can still see Ah Kong wandering aimlessly around the school compound. = =;
And what happened to Ah Bong? Does he even realize that today is our first day of class? Maybe they lose hope too when the manager is not there anymore to shout at them? No more motivation and inspiration for all of us anymore? O.O???
I feel weird not having Derek to call me everyday. . . "jane a jane, which class are we in now? Any homework?" You must learn to be more independent now har. . . I miss seeing your name appearing on my handphone screen. Call us out for a trip maybe?
Victor and Voon!!! I don't know any gentlemen from my group now. . . No one else can beat both of you. . . You are still the best for Group 16!!! ^^
Malvin. . . You are always so cute and cheerful. . . But why you looked so dull today? Can always call us up for lunch! Wish you luck in changing group yea? Hope that at least you know someone in your class.

Hey! Ying Ying is still the happiest one! She is in the same class with Justin and Brendan. Add Ni in. She is alone. . . Ni, they are good good friends you will know. . . I am sure you guys can get along with each other very soon. =) They are cute. . .

Saw Tze Perng, Hugh, Andrew, Ivan, Priscilla, George, Aliyu, Simon, Color. . .

Chon Kee, Alex and Wen Xian are in the same group with me now. . .
Met a few new friends too. . . Denise, Siaw Ping (same name as Jee?), Angelina. . . The good news is that--- we have more girls than boys in my class! No more the only girl. Yesh!!! XD
And luckily Kimmy have some friends too. . .
O yea. . . where is Jia Fen? Pray that she has friends too. . . and will be happy.
Jacq!!! I miss you. . . Feel so wrong not having you around with me. . . Just cannot cheer up much in class without you and others. . . =( Must take good care of yourself yea? So that we can meet again when free. . .
Miss the lecturers too. . . Ms Helena. Jacq you are lucky to have her as your Inno lecturer. . . Cheers! Maybe it is our turn to slip in and join your class now. We'll see, when we are free. xD
Ms Janice, I miss your lectures. . . and I love Economics! :P
Our step by step Mr Chai! He still remember my name! O.O!!!
Group 16's handsome and tough captains! I miss both of you too. . . Hope to see Mr George and Mr Chan walking around in Swin later. . . :)
Anyway, I still feel lucky and relieved having you around with me in class. . . Thanks Rich. . . I changed a bit too. . . coz I have you with me now. . . xF Feel so warm having you to walk me to class, being with me all the time, no more balone wherever I am. . . How would I even ask for more?
God bless you all. . . Treasure everyone around us and every moment we have together. It is fate that brings us in a group and knowing each other in our first sem. . . Enjoy your second sem everyone!!! Take care. . .

Posted by : Wing

Pupps will miss us. . .

Five more days to normal uni life!!! O.O!!!

Still remember our whole bunch of plans before the one month sem break?

Bring @jane swimming, jogging, play squash, bowling, movies, you going to gym, meeting friends, visit ama. . . haha! I think we only go for one- movie. xF

Spending time helping Pupps instead. . . hey, they are lucky to have two mature and understanding children har. . . xD Working for almost whole day isn't any of the teenagers' interest after all. They get bored very fast. Thumbs up for both rkk and @jane. =P

When I think back, our one month break is pretty meaningful. By helping Pupps, the father-and-son and father-and-daughter relationships grow stronger. Pa gets to talk more to me and wants to get involve in my conversation with Jee and Liang too. O_O He becomes more lively!

I believe that they will feel the difference if we go back to uni and they have to do most of the stuffs themselves. Normal lives for Pupps again. Pity them. We will see how it goes for the second sem break later on. =) Help them again maybe?

Learning to deal with customers who are very demanding was a great challenge and experience for both of us to stay on. They are only a tiny part of the society we have to face next time. Though it is not easy, we know that we have to try our very best to do it. +u!!! ^^

Some more we only meet each other once or twice a week. . . and it is always after our work when we are quite exhausted already. . . =.=; But who cares? It makes us treasure the time being together after missing each other for so many days. . . Nevermind if you are late, as long as we can make it to our date and we are happy. . . :)

Hope everything goes fine for second sem. We must work hard yea?

God bless us and Pupps. Good luck everyone!!!

Posted by: Wing

Somehow, it just happened. . .

The first time I met you, I never thought I will fall for you. . .

You would always talk to me and help me in whatever ways you could to make me notice you. . . I did not mind about it at all.

Your hair covered almost half of your face, I could not see your face clearly!!! You looked weird to me!!! O.O!!! I was scared!!! = =;

Somehow, it just happened. I am in love with you Rich. . .

I may not tell you often enough, but your love, sweet caresses, each rendezvous. . . all these are gifts in my life that I am very thankful for every single day. You are always there to support and to encourage me with your love and care. You listen and understand when I need to sort things out or make a decision. You are the one make my life fun. In any moment, your love is something real I can trust and believe in, and that make all the difference. I just hope you know, for now and always, how much I appreciate and love you in return.

I miss you when I am not seeing you but somehow feeling warm inside because you are close in heart. . .

Things may keep changing with age, but I just pray that as we grow old together, there is one thing that will never change. . . Our LOVE. . .

I hope our love is true and will get stronger with time. . .

I love you dear. . . ^^

Posted by : Wing

Penang Tour

3 days 2 nights Penang trip with Jee and her colleagues. To be exact it was only 2 days 2 nights.

We reached Penang almost midnight on Friday and many unexpected events happened which caused us to have only about 2 hours sleep that very night.
One of Jee's colleagues scanned his luggage at Kuching airport without buying and his luggage did not reach Penang, don't know where it had gone to. Around 1230 a.m. we left Penang airport and proceeded to "Line Clear", a place in Penang famous for its "nasi kandar" by the Indian-Muslims. I don't know whether we should call that supper or breakfast. A big plate of rice with half a fried chicken and mixed with 12 types of "kua curry". Imagine eating such spicy food at that time of the day, arrrh.......
Headed to TM Resort at 1.30 and half way the bus we chartered was stopped by the road blocked policeman due to its road tax expired. By the time we arrived at the Resort was almost 3a.m. Saturday morning. Everyone was exhausted.
Woke up at 5.45 after 2 hours sleep because we were supposed to gather at the lobby at 6.30. The A.C. power tripped while aunty Kueh was taking her shower. The whole room was in total darkness. I was not scared because Jee was with me but quite surprised why aunt Kueh didn't scream.
Haha, there is a Chinese proverb saying that bad things never come in single. Sigh.....
There were many programs planned for the 2 days tour. I felt the schedule was a bit tight but we all hope for the best. Oh ya, there were 33 of us in the group with Malays, Chinese & Dayaks, reflect the true spirit of 1 Malaysia.
Before we started our programs, there was a minor road accident. Ms Lai said the journey was bumpy becasue we did not say our prayers and she kept saying : Let us pray..... Haha, she is cute.
Our first destination was Penang Hill, wanted to try the excitement of using cable train but unfortunately the station rail track is doing some upgrading and it will only be ready by this November. Use 4-wheel drive instead and the cost was RM25 per head. We went early and the mist was still very thick, couldn't have an overview of Penang city, what the.....
Our journey was safe and smooth there on so I am not going to write it in details here. Just want to remind aunty Liew to be more careful when taking her toilet break. Don't feel good to see any of us hurt. Thanks God it was just a slip. Aunty Liew still fit and steady, haha!
We went to a lot of places within that very short period. Places like Kek Lo Si, Butterworth, Taiping Zoo, Gurney hawker centre, tour round Penang island, Butterfly farm, Bang Lan's kampung, Queensbay Mall- the longest shopping mall in Asia, .......
We sang karaoke P. Ramlee songs on the way to Taiping. The "old" ladies can sing pretty well and they have sweet and powerful voice. Ms Lai, you sang well too. I was very tired but I enjoyed your sweet and soft voice.
Can you imagine how tiring we were..... I enjoyed the trip anyway with all the uncles, aunties.... they are happy, joyous and sporting veterans.
I wish you all good health and happy always. Hope to see more trips organised by this group of cooperative, easy going people.
The happiest time for me is the moment I stepped in Penang airport and waved bye-bye to Penang.
Yeah !!! Home sweet home!!!
Almost there, someone is waiting.... Posted by: Wing

我可以为您做些什么。。。

看到爸爸憔悴的面庞，日渐消瘦的身形，动作从速捷变缓慢，很心疼，很心酸。。。

眼前我能做的就是多和他说话，多关心他，多体谅他老人家，帮他打理店里的一切。。。

除了这些，爸，身为您的女儿，我不知道还可以为您做些什么。。。

也许更多的祈祷吧。。。祈求上主时时刻刻与您同在，保佑您，爱护您。。。

也许我不能成为最好的女儿，但只要求自己可以作出最大的努力，

以反哺之心奉敬您，以感恩之心孝顺您。。。

Posted by: Wing

A Letter to God. . .

Thanks God for everything. . .

I understand that everyone has his or her own problems and challenges in life. So do I. I had a cross to carry, but I know very well that You are always by my side when I go through everyone of them. . .

I don't ask for pain to disappear, sorrow to go or an easy life rather than a tough one. . .

I only pray that You can guide and lead me to the right path, give me more strength to overcome all the obstacles in life, make me stronger and tougher. . .

Thanks God for my family. . . Please be together with Jee and Pa so that they will always be healthy. Bless this small family You have created. . .

Thanks God for my relatives and friends. . . Please let all of them live with gratitude and treasure their lives. Let us live together without lies but truth and love. . .

Thanks God for everyone I know who had left footprints in my heart. Happy or sad memories with them, I shall never forget. . .

Thanks God for we are created and made being part of this world. . . I appreciate having everyone of them. . . =)

Praise the Lord. . .

Posted by : Wing

I miss you too. . .

I was supposed to go to Hokkien Association this morning but then AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! The clerk gave the wrong date to Pa. . . = =; In fact is next Sunday. . . and NOT TODAY!!!!! Know what? I was planning to take a pic of myself wearing school uniform and post it to you. . . Bopian lo. Do it next week. . . ^^

Thinking of you working so hard, I feel guilty if I just sit here and do nothing. So I decided to make myself busy, otherwise I am going to miss you the whole day. . .

I washed Jee's car, cleaned the car porch, thought of bathing "Sleeping drug" but the sky looks gloomy (FAILED!!!). . . I may ask Jee to guide me on cooking simple dish later. I will keep learning. Dont fail jie!!! xF

I dont reply your message coz dont want to distract you from work. +u!!! Elleby miss you. . .

Posted by: Wing

I am BACK!!!! A new Wing...

Here I come again...

A new start, a new Wing!!! ^^

Think of the days I stopped blogging, everyday was a busy and tiring day but full of laughters and excitement. . .

Thank you for all the support, love and care. . .

Thank you for making my everyday a Happy Day! xF

停写了一阵子，我又从新出发了。新的开始，一个全新的我。。。现在最想做的事情是感恩。

感谢帮助过我，鼓励我和一直给我支持的亲人和朋友，在我迷惘沮丧，心情低落，悲伤和受委屈的时候，对我不离不弃。

感谢初中和高中是的同学，大学先修班的朋友。。。

感谢那些伤害过我的人，因为你们，让我成长，让我学会了宽容，体谅和放下。。。

不管以后会怎样改变，我都要在此谢谢你们。谢谢你们带给我的温情，给了我永远珍藏的记忆。

感谢主一直以来如此的眷顾我。。。

Posted by : Wing

舍不得说再见。。。

我需要冷静一下。。。
给我一点时间，所以会暂时告别爱乐家族，去完成一些我该做的事情。。。
我只是暂时停笔，还会回来。。。从一开始便看我的blog的朋友和亲人，谢谢你们的支持！希望我快点完成我的事情，再回到爱乐家族。。。
加油Wing!!! =)

Posted by : Wing

珍藏里的回忆。。。

思念是一种负担。如果没有思念，人将会是多么的轻松和快乐。。。

成长让大家的步伐不一样了。我想把我的珍藏品拿出来回味一下。害怕再多一点点的成长，会把这纯真甜蜜的所做所为，当成是幼稚无知。

这纸条是我亲笔写来激发一个自卑感很重的朋友。。。

第一次看到这么大的小熊棒棒糖，觉得它很可爱。当时脑海中浮现一个人，所以买下了。。。之后的点点滴滴，就由收糖者自己去回味吧！

Blink Blink是到Sabah游玩时订做的。还是一样闪亮亮的吗？

忘了钱包有多少个分格。。。总之是很多很多。每一格我都存放一个希望，希望TT成功，健康，幸福，快乐，知足，感恩，还有还有。。。我不记得了。。。

17岁，17个祝福语。写祝福语时的耐心，一切过程，如果说当初没心动，那是骗人的。。。

那时候大家都没有钱，所以选择最便宜的薯条。不过这是我吃过最好吃的薯条。。。

"YOU CAN"... 在我心里，只有“你能”。。。

还有一些不便公布的珍藏。。。

直觉告诉我，一切都变了，不一样了。这些珍藏是否还存在，或是已被丢弃，已不再重要了。。。可是当中的点点滴滴，还是那么的清晰。

10年，20年后，如果这些珍藏的影片还保留在电脑中，再回味时，会不会一切已模糊，不会再勾起任何的回忆呢？

Posted by : Wing

Lizards... Eeeeeee... My FRIEND???

I have a great fear of lizards. By just looking at it from far, it can make me feel so anxious and my heart beats very fast till you can see with naked eyes my heart pounds... Though I don't want it to happen, I just can't control it. Lizards are very very scary and nerve-wracking.
I won't enter a bathroom or toilet if there is a lizard. I won't go inside my bedroom if I found out there is a lizard in there. Because of this, our windows are fully netted and the sliding door is always kept close.
Jee killed countless lives these years because of my phobia. Her heartlessly killings had turned her into a reluctant expert at killing lizards... xD
I am sorry, Jee... I know you did all that because of me. Everytime after you killed a lizard, you would always followed by saying "Why kill lizards? They don't disturb and they bring good luck... "
From now on Jee, you don't kill!!! Chase them outside the house. That will be very much touched already... I will reprogramme my brain to relax, not to scream or cry when I see a lizard in the house. If I still fear, I will cover up my eyes, not to see it, not to think of it...
Jee, I think I am making some progress. Last few days I saw a lizard in Liang's room and I did not panic. That lizard must have slipped in the house when Pa opened the sliding door widely. (Pa likes to do that and always get scolded by Jee to keep the door closed at all times.) xD
Liang is very brave. He still can sleep soundly with a lizard in his room. He even teased me by saying "See! Your best friend is with me, in the same room!" (Yuckkkkk!!! My BEST FREIND??? He was saying lizard is my FRIEND??? Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..................)
As his elder sister, I should be more firm. I really need to confront this phobia. I can't let lizards taking over my life. I must learn to live with them even though I still fear.
Lizards, lizards, lizards... I am freaked out!!!
Oh yea... Have anyone of you ever come across lizards' droppings? It's black stool with white on top. (Looks like small letter 'i'.) I used to tell Jee that lizards are honest. They broadcast to the world that the droppings are 'i' (lizards). Hahaha!!! 不打自招。。。

Posted by : Wing