累了。。。

当梦不想再做，故事不想再说。。。

我只希望回归原点。

The Boss from HELL

Everyone in the workplace calls him mad dog. He is the boss from Hell.

He treated us like dirt. He has no shame and make no effort to hide his bullying behaviors.
He is slowly killing us!!!

Do you know what does a bully and sperm have in common?
They both have a one-in-a-million chance of becoming a human being.

In another word, he's not a human being. The nickname "Mad dog" fits him perfectly.

SSPCA

My colleague Ling asked me to accompany her to a place - SSPCA.
I was asking: What is the meaning of SSPCA and what does it stand for?
She answered: You just follow and you'll find it out yourself.
This is my first time going and the moment we reached that place, there is a big signboard -
The Sarawak Society for the Prevention of cruelty to animals.
Oh, so we are coming here.
Few months ago, a pregnant stray cat went into her house and gave birth to 3 kittens. Now she's troubled with these cats pooping in her neighbour's garden, pissing everywhere, spoilt their plants.....so on. Her neighbour has been complaining and mentally harassing her to abandon the cats.
There are hundreds of cats and dogs there waiting for adoption. They would be put to sleep if nobody adopt them. Sometimes we human are really cold and heartless.
After a short visit there, there is no words to express my feelings.
Myself and both my children had a painful parting experience when we kept hamster as pet. Then on, there is a rule in our house : NO pet is allowed.

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Try hard to be in your shoe

最近我和大姐的沟通出现了一些问题。

一直以来，我都是在扮演“听”的角色。我尝试以你的观点去了解你的心情和处境，用耐心和爱心去明白，关怀你。而且也尽量配合在精神上给于鼓励。但是我不能避免偶尔在想法和理念方面会和你有所不同。当我给以一些不一样的意见时，你的情绪就会突然的转变，一下子失控。好好的一场姐妹谈论，往往就变成了辩论，然后你就会把我过去无心的错误，一下子全搬出来指证我，最后闹得不欢而散，把彼此之间的关系搞得很僵。

我每天都有很多的事情要处理，还要拨出时间去聆听你蔢媳之间的问题。我每次都有配合，很用心去听，甚至试着去穿你的鞋子（虽然我不可能穿的下）。

对不起，也许我是太理性了。如果你再找我谈，我会试用感情进入你的内心世界里。

我真的很在乎我们的姐妹情。

也许会搁上好一段时间吧！

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i m sick...

I am sick, of being me....

That's embarrassing!!!

Know what? I broke Jane's bed.

The weather last night was damned hot. I turned on her bedroom's air cond., relaxing myself on her bed. Half-way on facebook enjoyed viewing Tionia and her sweeties' Australia trip photos, I heard a loud sound and suddenly found myself was tumbled down.

Oh! Oh! The bed is broken!!!

I took a close look at the bed and found that a few pieces of the long, thin piece of metal attached to the main support were broken. The metal parts are all welded and not screwed to the main support. It's obviously not built to stand my body weight!!!Lao Lao quickly used nylon string to tighten all the broken metal pieces to the main support for temporary use or else Jane has to switch to sleeping on the floor.

When seeing this, Liang was talking humorously to himself: pity your bed la cheh, not only it has to support giant size human, it has to accomodate all those animals that spread around you. Sigh......
Oops, I'm sorry.

Jane, that's embarrassing!!!

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Legal Festive Robbers

I was stopped by a police at a road block yesterday afternoon and he accused me for not having my seat belt fastened.
I had been using a seat belt since the very first day I drove a car irrespective of police presence. Don't you all know that I am a good citizen and I comply to the traffic law? For my own safety benefits too....
The police kept asking me the same question : You just answer me, did you use your seat belt?
Inside my heart : What a stupid question? See with your own eyes la....my seat belt is properly, comfortably worn....
I answered him : YES
He kept repeating the same question and my answer is still firm : YES
Emm..... I got it! The smell of corruption......
They are just the "legal festive robbers"

Monday Blues!!!

I hate Mondays.....
I am feeling so reckless and do not have the mood to do anything.
I've yawned countless times since this morning......
My head is getting heavier
My eyes can hardly open
I feel very tired and weak
Oh! Am I getting sick?
Or it is just Monday Blues???

posted by: ellepo

SAD

My emotions these few days are beyond control, going up and down like a rollercoaster.

Out of nothing, there'll be a sudden anger outburst and the problem is I hurt the people I love the most.

I'm feeling pretty sad. I know it affects all of us and quite disruptive in a way to our life pattern.

Tell me, anyone?

What should I do???

posted by: ellepo

???!!!

Life is never easy.....the pain, the evil.......
And too many things to handle....
conflicts, health issues, relationships, unmet needs,
financial issues... arrrh!!! stressful and frightening,
ageing family members....need increase care and planning.....

What am I supposed to do?
Worry, depress, cry, go round and talk about it?

NO!!! Let's fight the battle......
live a simple life - living one day at a time
accept the things that I can't change
appreciate what I already have
practice to be more humble
take up life challenges
and most importantly
TRUST GOD & PRAY TO HIM

posted by: ellepo

3.1.2011 - Not A Good Day

今天心情糟透了！

原本以为新的一年，新的开始 ，新的发型，新的装扮，统统换新的，希望今年会比去年好。

可是一天里，接二连三的消息传来都是离别，而且个个都是工作好拍挡，喝茶好伙伴。

Probably today is a sad day for me. (sorry i have to continue with English as i can do it faster)

Early in the morning, I started with counting my dear colleagues who are going to retire from the work place - Lim Da Ge, Lau, Bang Lan, Glo....

Then Bang Lan informed me that Ling Ling might be leaving, followed by the news that Cil and August will be leaving soon to another unit.....

Oh no, the group is getting smaller again!!!

I was the one who asked for inter unit transfer in the first place due to the distant from home to office. It ends up almost everybody is going, leaving me behind with Liew and all those people who I am sick with.

My request was not entertained due to the importance of my job functions. My boss said he can't release me. Some idiots stay back eventhough boss wanted to let go of them so much but no unit wants to take them. What the heck does it mean? I have to work with all those idiots who only know how to talk big and act sweet, doing nothing and count down for "Agong's Day" only every month?

Sad, very very sad.....

Bidding adieu to a close colleague is often heartbreaking. But it is a fact that I must admit in order to move on with life.

So sad that you all are leaving soon. This work place won't be the same anymore. I' ll never forget the happy moments, the arguements, the coffee breaks and the gatherings.....
Seriously, I'll miss all of you. That's so very true.

I wish you all plenty of smiles, blue skies.... now and always. Be healthy and happy wherever you go, whatever you do.

posted by : ellepo

Winter Solstice, 冬至

冬至, Winter Solstice Festival - a big day for the Chinese to get together, making and eating of tangyuan, 汤圆.

This is one of Jane's favourite traditional Chinese dessert and she used to make them with ama when she was young.
This year, she insists to try on her own. She started with the simplest type, unfilled tangyuan served with a sweet broth. She has Michy to help her to roll the dough into small balls. I can see these 2 young pretty ladies were having fun.
She also cooked chicken rice without taking my help. I was so impressed the way she and Michy cut the apples, cucumber, onions and chillies for the salad. The best part is that they did not mess up the kitchen. The kitchen is kept so clean after the cooking except an unexpected accident caused by me, this "lao tai po" =p
Oooopsss.....I m sorry.....
Let's see the food....
The tangyuan are too big and tasteless, but it's a very good start, good try...
The chicken rice, the chicken, the salad....emm..... yummy!!!
O.o, we forgot to take pics of the rice and the salad, not very keen in taking photos....

Rich, the food she cooked may not turn out as well, but she has spent the whole morning in it with love and passion. She told me that you have been working very hard in shop, must give you some home-cooked food rather than all the time eating cheap stuff. "Sayang" you oh!!!
Both of you are still young. Keep learning of whatever is part of growing up.
May you have sweet memories of growing up together....
Love u 2....


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My Office PC is DEAD!!!

Yesh! My office pc is dead.
I was doing material reservation. Half way through, the power was suddenly switched off by itself...... no noises, no lights.....nothing, completely silent, completely dead.
My pc must have worked too hard until it got heart attack. It's high time to take a rest. Not only the pc, the person who is using it every day - ME!!!
I don't want to end my life just like that!
I still have a lot of things in my mind yet to be done.
I need a rest.
For those who read this blog, don't be surprised why I still can write blog. I am using my princess's network, hahaha.....

posted by: ellepo

Dumb Bitch!!!!!

I'd inherited an incredibly stupid but at the same time was really stubborn subordinate in my workplace.
He is so confused and dumb, beyond salvation. Needs spoon feeding and reassurance all the time and yet can't get the simplest job done.
Why do I need an assistant in the first place if I myself am solving all the problems delegated to him?
Just a 3 days 2 nights travelling - doing the simplest delivery of stock ..........arrhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
How much problems he has created for me to settle already? I can't even have a peaceful talk with the doctor in the clinic. Forget about the MC, I don't think I can have a good rest.
I thought today he will come back safe and sound so that I can have a peaceful weekend. Oh no!!! Something happen again.............
Sigh...... you dumb bitch!!! You have made my life very difficult at the workplace. It's been such a stressful time even since I accepted you to work under me. I get fed up and tired of solving your problems over and over again. You are an adult and a father of three, you should know how to handle your problems without using up all my time. Do you know that I feel so annoyed and unlucky having to deal with all those kind of things?
@#$%^*+*^>

posted by: ellepo

Puzzle???

I am feeling tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally.......really tired.
Its not easy to maintain positive relationships with my siblings though I have been trying real hard. Why? Just because they have better life and can never put themselves in my shoes?
Tensions.....we can no longer communicate nicely. More often our conversations will end up with a fight. But do you know that behind every fight there is a reason? Why are all the arrows pointing at me only? Because I am the youngest? I can't even defend myself when I am being penalised. I am rebellious when I stand out for my rights.
Feelings are hurt............ my heart aches...........
All of a sudden, I think of you, mama.
Mama, I miss you very much.
You are the only one that I can have heart to heart talk. You are using your tough life experiences to understand my problems. You are a truly honest caring mama.
Talk to me, answer me....... I beg you, mama........or just open your eyes and look at me, that will be enough.
I don't have energy to stand any longer, I am falling........

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Proud of You, Ah Liang!!!

My boy Ah Liang, the Corporal of BB Boys organised a 2 days 1 night fun camp in Lundu over the weekend for around 30 people.

He took charge and arranged the whole thing including preparing food for all the officers and juniors who joined in the camp.

After coming back from the camp, he started to help me with preparing dinner every evening. I am very glad that Ah Liang is starting to take interest and responsibility with food.
Thank you Liang for preparing all the home-cooked food. They are simple but nice to eat. I also can relax my mind from tiring and hectic schedule in cooking food everyday after coming back from work. One thing very important to me is the hidden love and affection behind the food that you cooked.
I feel very proud to have you as my son.

You are a good son and an excellent cook! Hey, fit and good looking some more. Cool especially when girls read your wall messages in face book ha. (Tell you all a secret, one of his friends asked him to publish some cool and emotional phrases to suspend girls......O.o, I once thought it was true.....^.^)

Anyone? Want to try his cooking? I'll send him round to you if you want, hahaha......

Who ever marries him in future, "chap tou" wor..... who will be that lucky girl is yet to see!!!

Here are some of the food that he cooked......
Look healthy, colourful and nice to eat......

posted by : ellepo

我家佬佬

星期五下班回家看到大门开着，心想生活虽然过得忙碌，可也蛮幸福的。女儿不在家时，佬佬也会在我到家之前的五分钟把大门先打开，让我可以直接把车驾进车房里去。

打开车门刚要下车的时候，看到一大堆的狗粪呈现在眼前，还是新鲜刚出炉的啊！一定是隔壁家最近领养小狗的藉作。我口里一边骂小狗，哪里不好做大生意，偏偏把财送到我家门口，一边忙着把皮包，水壶拿进屋里，然后再出来做清理工作。

当我再次回到车房时，看到佬佬戴着口罩，手拿一大堆的旧报纸，蹲在那把狗粪给清理干净了。看到那一幕， 心里真是很感动。感动是因为你帮我做了一件我不太愿意亲自下手做的事。二来是觉得你的健康有进展了。一向来忙忙碌碌的你又回来了， 不再软绵绵的躺在一旁， 不说话， 不做事，也不理会任何人。

佬佬， 虽然你现在什么都做不了，但我希望看到你健康。 你一定要加油哦！我永远支持你！

posted by: ellepo

Weird Worker

Most of my colleagues are pretty normal and we all get along well in the office except one - the resident witch.....
She created information about me to cause me harm so that my position in my workplace is shaky. She backstabbed me so many times.....
I never want to explain because we are all adults and moreover I feel my contributions are being appreciated in my workplace.
I am very sure that I did nothing wrong. The only mistake I made is I am more committed to my work, more flexible, smarter than her in handling our daily work.
Whereas for her, the only thing she can do is to act sweet. 50 years old woman to act sweeeeeet???? t">b@$*#>t....

posted by : ellepo

My Cell Phone is GONE!!!

All these while I have been using second hand or recycled handphones from both of my sweeties.
I always get something that is economy and practical for myself. I don't get things that I like or something of my dream because I "sayang" my sweaty hard earned $$$. (kedekut the Malays call me)
Just 2 months ago Jane said to me : Jee, get a new cellular phone for yourself. You have been working so hard, should love yourself more. Buy the model and pattern that you like. Don't always pick the handphones that we are going to throw due to some defects. You really need a good one as all your official calls are directed to it.
Wah! this girl, sounds like an old lady, my old mama.
Sometimes I tend to spend on something desirable that is not a necessity because of what she said. But have a feeling of enjoyment and satisfaction. Thanks Jane. Remind me to spend occasionally but not too often or else my budget burst, both you and liang have to take "sweet potato porridge" for most of the time. Haha...
Yesterday I accidentally dropped my handphone in the toilet bowl. And you know what? I picked it up with my hands because it is only 2 months old and this is the first time ever in my life I bought a handphone of my own choice.
Arrrh.........eventhough the toilet bowl was relatively clean, it wasn't a pleasant experience at all......
I have decided to buy a cheap phone with simple functions than to get the latest cell phone model with all the new additions and features.
I am sure Tay will say something again about my phone when he see me using it.
Who cares?
I am happy with it.
Bye bye my beloved Nokia! (I don't know what model, ask the new generations, they know)
I'll get another old and reliable Nokia phone with simple design and come with only the most basic features. I am not going to make any more investment into an expensive high tech phone that I probably never know how to use.
Most of all, I'm afraid the same incident will happen again. Who knows?

Posted by : ellepo

Tired? Just Me!!!

I am super busy with bunch of office work to get done lately.
Seriously, I am jealous of my colleagues who can just sit there, doing nothing, relax, on the phone..... (sorry, no offence)
The distribution of job functions is obviously not fair. You know more, do more. Sometimes just how much I wish my respond can be a little bit slower, more care free and less responsible. But I can't. I am just not that type of person.
I am very struggling. I am feeling tired.
"Tired"? - not a powerful word to describe how I feel.
I am wounded - physically and mentally.
I am battered, broken and bruised.
It's just like a never ending story....
but I am determined to stay on........Just for you.......the two of you!!!
Pray that everything will be going on smoothly for me, everything.......
GOD Bless.........

posted by : Ellepo