Almighty true and incomparable God,
I am very thankful for the gift of life you gave to Jane. I cannot thank you enough for the 2nd chance of life you have given to her. It was the Grace of God that she's still able to come back to me and I can see and hug her tight.
Lately, I have tried very hard to get things done on my own and it did not seem to get any better. I am weary and very tired. What's the matter with me?
Did I not remember God is always there to lend a helping hand?
I was once a ran away Christian but God, You never gave up on me throughout these years.
When think of it, I came to realise that God You have strange ways of giving me the answers to my questions! You have prepared me for today and the future by allowing me to fall and learn. God You have planted the answer in me long time ago with the ever so comforting verse of the Bible "Come to me you who are weary and I shall give you rest".
Thank you God for the trials that you are taking me through, for those are the times I feel closest to You and learn the most!
Touch someone with your love
Rather than focus on the thorns of life
Smell the roses and count the blessings!
The Will of God will never take you to where the Grace of God will not PROTECT you...
Praise The Lord!
Posted by: Ellepo
Tuesday, 27 April 2010
Sunday, 25 April 2010
我会好好活下去!
我不可以死在这里... 我一定要回家! God, 救我! 我要见Jee, PaPa, Ah Liang, Elleby, Sao Yong, Anthony... 我要回家......
就靠这坚定的意志力，我终于回家...
经过这一次的生死经验，我才懂得原来生命是那么可贵。无论发生什么事，能够活下去才是最重要的... 我会更加珍惜生命，爱我身边的每一个人，珍惜我所拥有的一切。
Jee, 我爱你! 如果有来世，我还要做 ‘Jee Jee 的女儿。’
Liang, 听Jee 说你哭得很伤心，我很感动...
Pa, 谢谢你的问候。
Elleby, 我以后不管去那里都会带着你，你是我的幸运星!
谢谢Mummy,Ginger,Girl, 你们对我的关心与爱护，我会永远记在心里。
Tua E和Ling, 对不起，因为不想让你们担心，所以没第一时间告诉你们。我没事了，谢谢你们为了我操心。Tua E, 谢谢你的porridge, 好好吃哦!
收到了Mei E E, Sao Yong, Ching Foong, 还有好多好多人的问候及短信, 我不会忘了你们的!
Anthony, 幸好我没事，还可以和你去 ‘kai kai’。原来你也是很关心我的。好感动哦! 几时要请我吃selamat?
我会好好活下去，你们也要为了我好好的活着。
我爱你们!!!
Posted by: Wing
就靠这坚定的意志力，我终于回家...
经过这一次的生死经验，我才懂得原来生命是那么可贵。无论发生什么事，能够活下去才是最重要的... 我会更加珍惜生命，爱我身边的每一个人，珍惜我所拥有的一切。
Jee, 我爱你! 如果有来世，我还要做 ‘Jee Jee 的女儿。’
Liang, 听Jee 说你哭得很伤心，我很感动...
Pa, 谢谢你的问候。
Elleby, 我以后不管去那里都会带着你，你是我的幸运星!
谢谢Mummy,Ginger,Girl, 你们对我的关心与爱护，我会永远记在心里。
Tua E和Ling, 对不起，因为不想让你们担心，所以没第一时间告诉你们。我没事了，谢谢你们为了我操心。Tua E, 谢谢你的porridge, 好好吃哦!
收到了Mei E E, Sao Yong, Ching Foong, 还有好多好多人的问候及短信, 我不会忘了你们的!
Anthony, 幸好我没事，还可以和你去 ‘kai kai’。原来你也是很关心我的。好感动哦! 几时要请我吃selamat?
我会好好活下去，你们也要为了我好好的活着。
我爱你们!!!
Posted by: Wing
Drown
24 April 2010, 13 of us from our English class went to Sematan Palm Beach Resort as one of our activities for the class magazine. It was really an unforgettable experience for me and all of us...
We cycled out from the resort for lunch and on our way back, it started drizzling. Jacqueline and I were leading the way while others paddled behind us. Both of us kept talking as we wanted to make sure that we don't lost each other halfway.
About two minutes cycling, a turbo car passed by and splashed water on us. I shouted at Jacqueline to be careful but I lost my balance. I fell to the deep swamps on my right and it happened so sudden...
My bike dropped into the swamps and i lost my specs. I was able to shout for Jacqueline's help before I plunged into the dirty mud water. I thought that I was going to die and I was extremly scared as I couldn't swim and breathe in the water. Many things flashed to me at that moment...
'Oh God, save me! I don't want to die here... Jee, I want to go home...'
I struggled very hard, kicking both my legs, trying to step on anything that can support me. Moving my arms really fast, I tried to get my face out of the water so that i can breathe. I heard Jacqueline cried out, shouting at me...
At last I was able to get my face out of the water. I tried to get up by grabbing grasses and branches. Started to shout at Jacqueline because it's too far down from the road and I couldn't see her at all. I could feel her sound of relief when she heard me screaming for help. She tried to reach me but she was still too far to grab hold of my hand. Finding something hard as a support, she finally managed to reach and hold my hand tight. Still kicking hard and trying to float, I told Jac...
'You can pull me up, Jac! You can do it! I trust you...'
'Yes I can do it! I will get you out from there!'
Jac answered me firmly and we tried to give each other strength. We both trusted each other very much at that very moment.
Thanks God that the boys rushed to us when they caught up and found out what happened. Wei Zhung and Jac pulled me up and with our strength, we did it. I was saved...
I hugged Jac tightly, crying and felt relief. Others were too shocked to say a word. The boys stopped a car passed by to bring me and Jac back to the resort. Voon Hwa jumped down to the water to get back my slippers and cap. Ah Bong also dived in to take up the bike. They apologised for not able to find my specs.
Thanks so much guys!!! Words cannot descibe how grateful I am to you all. Cannot imagine what will happen to me without all of you.
Jac, with your courage, I am saved. You are my angel... After this between life and death incident, we are friends for life... =)
Wei Zhung, I am sorry. The trip supposed to be a very enjoyable one turned out to be a shocking experience to all of us. You looked so pale to me even I was without my specs, take care ar... =P
Voon Hwa and Ah Bong, I am really touched for both of you willing to jump into the muddy water to free me from the branches and save my properties. Thumb up to both you young men.
Victor and Derek, thanks for comforting me and treating my cuts and wounds. And Derek, thanks for the tissue papers... XD
Thanks also to Malvin, Terence and Mutchi... You guys are real gentlemen!
I love you all!!!
Posted by: Wing
We cycled out from the resort for lunch and on our way back, it started drizzling. Jacqueline and I were leading the way while others paddled behind us. Both of us kept talking as we wanted to make sure that we don't lost each other halfway.
About two minutes cycling, a turbo car passed by and splashed water on us. I shouted at Jacqueline to be careful but I lost my balance. I fell to the deep swamps on my right and it happened so sudden...
My bike dropped into the swamps and i lost my specs. I was able to shout for Jacqueline's help before I plunged into the dirty mud water. I thought that I was going to die and I was extremly scared as I couldn't swim and breathe in the water. Many things flashed to me at that moment...
'Oh God, save me! I don't want to die here... Jee, I want to go home...'
I struggled very hard, kicking both my legs, trying to step on anything that can support me. Moving my arms really fast, I tried to get my face out of the water so that i can breathe. I heard Jacqueline cried out, shouting at me...
At last I was able to get my face out of the water. I tried to get up by grabbing grasses and branches. Started to shout at Jacqueline because it's too far down from the road and I couldn't see her at all. I could feel her sound of relief when she heard me screaming for help. She tried to reach me but she was still too far to grab hold of my hand. Finding something hard as a support, she finally managed to reach and hold my hand tight. Still kicking hard and trying to float, I told Jac...
'You can pull me up, Jac! You can do it! I trust you...'
'Yes I can do it! I will get you out from there!'
Jac answered me firmly and we tried to give each other strength. We both trusted each other very much at that very moment.
Thanks God that the boys rushed to us when they caught up and found out what happened. Wei Zhung and Jac pulled me up and with our strength, we did it. I was saved...
I hugged Jac tightly, crying and felt relief. Others were too shocked to say a word. The boys stopped a car passed by to bring me and Jac back to the resort. Voon Hwa jumped down to the water to get back my slippers and cap. Ah Bong also dived in to take up the bike. They apologised for not able to find my specs.
Thanks so much guys!!! Words cannot descibe how grateful I am to you all. Cannot imagine what will happen to me without all of you.
Jac, with your courage, I am saved. You are my angel... After this between life and death incident, we are friends for life... =)
Wei Zhung, I am sorry. The trip supposed to be a very enjoyable one turned out to be a shocking experience to all of us. You looked so pale to me even I was without my specs, take care ar... =P
Voon Hwa and Ah Bong, I am really touched for both of you willing to jump into the muddy water to free me from the branches and save my properties. Thumb up to both you young men.
Victor and Derek, thanks for comforting me and treating my cuts and wounds. And Derek, thanks for the tissue papers... XD
Thanks also to Malvin, Terence and Mutchi... You guys are real gentlemen!
I love you all!!!
Posted by: Wing
Thursday, 22 April 2010
重感情的我...
今天下午放学回家时，忽然发现Elleby的天蝎小nao nao不见了。
哈哈!看Elleby因祸得福，多出了两个大nao nao... 不过看来看去，还是天蝎小nao nao顺眼... =P
我紧张的像疯婆一样，把整个书包给翻了，也找不到，以为是在学校弄丢了... 我急得差点哭了出来! 心里想着，如果是弄丢了Elleby， 我该怎么办?
自从Elleby介入我的生活, 就跟我形影不离，没有离开过我的身边。
我忽然觉得原来我是如此的重感情，一只小玩偶都可以占据我的心, 换作是人，我又会如何去面对? 太重感情是会很容易被伤害的... 我应该在该放下时就学习放下。
刚刚在床下找到天蝎小nao nao, phew...... 松了一口气。>.< (我就知道我那么小心，不可能会弄丢的啦...haha!!!)
Posted by: Wing
HANDS
Jane took this picture during our prayer with mom. She told me, "see! three hands, three generations - grandma, mother and daughter". Looking at these hands, it reminds me a lot of the past.
I remember mom's hands when she was busy sewing. She sewed countless of "baju kurung" just to earn a living to keep her children survived. She cooked wonderful delicious "nyonya" food for us and till now I still can't get anyone else to cook "nyonya" food as nice as hers. Her hands never stopped working even how tired she was.
For almost ten years, mom can only move one side of her hands. The hands used to be strong and fleshy are now thin and wrinkled with bones and greenish veins.
These were the hands that once lifted me up, to face life with courage and determination. The strength of her hands had led to who I am today.
Mom, I will use the power of my hands as well as you used yours to lift up my children.
I will hold your hands tight when I pray for you as I feel that prayer is the most important thing that you need right now.
Let's hold our hands tight as a touch of love and don't let go even I know well that one day I still have to let go.
posted by : Ellepo
Tuesday, 13 April 2010
天蝎座
最看不清自己的星座。总是在恍恍惚惚中坚持着没必要的痛苦，而轻易放手眼前的幸福。
上帝在我们的人生旅途中给了我们种种不同的机会。要如何紧握，如何珍惜，就得靠自己的机智和勇气。同样的机会不会出现两次。错过了一次，不是不可以从来，而是一切都已不再一样。地点，时间，那种感觉......
天蝎的朋友，仔细想想，你真的了解自己吗? 还是从来没有看清过自己的真心?
Posted by: Wing
Monday, 5 April 2010
Learn to accept "ageing"
Recently, I notice my body changes. It becomes weaker and slower. I have gained fat and lost bone mass. My face wrinkled and I start to have grey hair. I take a longer time to learn new things and my memory becomes less effective. I repeat the same saying over and over without realising it. Worse still, I faced challenge to my health related to age. Let me be frank, I was frightened. In fact, the first thing I did was panic.
Oh! I am growing old.
One of my colleagues told me : "Mdm, cakaplah kamu berusia ataupun berpengalaman, jangan selalu cakap sendiri sudah tua".
Ya, that sounds better. The experiences that I gained through the journey of my life are valuable lessons for the future. They help me to think, to develop my potential and to shape my attitude.
I can't deny the fact that I'm growing older each day but I want to grow old in my own unique way. I think our mind plays an important role in making us feel younger or older. It's important to remain cheerful all the time. Age hardens our arteries but we should not allow age to harden our mind. We have to keep our mind working as the saying goes "an idle mind is the devil's workshop".
It is a help to have friends who are in similar conditions and in the same age group. There'll be so much in common to share, to discuss and to help solve. LJ, Cil P, Cil N, Chang and a lot more whom I can't mention them one by one here, you are one of those special people. Thanks for being my friends.
It is also important to be able to mix with the young and have the ability to feel comfortable in their company.
Age makes everything different for everyone.
Anyway, our life is not over yet. Think of all the great things we can do like travelling and do take care of ourselves, sleep, rest, eat right and do some light exercises.
Let's hold our hands tight and combat the signs of ageing. Fight it all the way.
CHEERS!
posted by: Ellepo
Oh! I am growing old.
One of my colleagues told me : "Mdm, cakaplah kamu berusia ataupun berpengalaman, jangan selalu cakap sendiri sudah tua".
Ya, that sounds better. The experiences that I gained through the journey of my life are valuable lessons for the future. They help me to think, to develop my potential and to shape my attitude.
I can't deny the fact that I'm growing older each day but I want to grow old in my own unique way. I think our mind plays an important role in making us feel younger or older. It's important to remain cheerful all the time. Age hardens our arteries but we should not allow age to harden our mind. We have to keep our mind working as the saying goes "an idle mind is the devil's workshop".
It is a help to have friends who are in similar conditions and in the same age group. There'll be so much in common to share, to discuss and to help solve. LJ, Cil P, Cil N, Chang and a lot more whom I can't mention them one by one here, you are one of those special people. Thanks for being my friends.
It is also important to be able to mix with the young and have the ability to feel comfortable in their company.
Age makes everything different for everyone.
Anyway, our life is not over yet. Think of all the great things we can do like travelling and do take care of ourselves, sleep, rest, eat right and do some light exercises.
Let's hold our hands tight and combat the signs of ageing. Fight it all the way.
CHEERS!
posted by: Ellepo
Saturday, 3 April 2010
爱
~爱里没有忍耐，爱便肤浅。
爱里没有宽容，爱便狭窄。
爱里没有尊敬，爱便专制。
爱里没有信赖，爱便短促。
爱里没有了解，爱便痛苦。
爱里没有交流，爱便死亡。~
-Sweet waiting...
Posted by : Wing
如果大树倒了...
“如果大树倒了，树上再美的花朵也会跟着枯萎”。这是Jane对我说的。
她把我比喻成大树，而她和Liang是大树上盛开着的美丽花朵。
随着日子的流逝，岁月增长，我的健康起了很多大大小小的警钟。我向来固执，也粗心大意，忽略了许多发生在自己身上的问题。
曾经有位医生对我说过，我是属于柚木身形，外表扎实坚固，一旦倒下就永无机会再翻身。要我多注意健康，保重身体。免得不幸倒下时，一切都已迟了。
当时我吱吱唔唔的点头，过后每天忙忙碌碌的生活，把自己搞得喘不过气来，又把医生的话给忘得一干二净了。
最近感觉很累，偏头痛又开始攻击我，害我坐也不是，站也不安，晚上也睡不好。Jane和Liang两姐弟看了很担心。很多家务事能帮的都帮，以减轻我的负担。又给我按摩捶背，让我舒服一点。Jane还一直劝我有不舒服就要看医生，小病不治，怕成为大病啊!
“你一直以来都只为我们姐弟着想，做什么事情都是为了我们，从不好好对待自己。你是我们的大树，万一你倒了，我和弟弟该怎么办? 我们都需要你，要和你永远在一起的”。
对不起Jane,我没想到这一点，让你操心了。你说的对，爱你们最基本的一件事就是先要学会爱我自己。我好，你们也跟着好啊!
答应你，我会尽力保护这棵大树，不会让它倒下来，直到你们这两棵小树屈壮长大，成为大树，开出属于你们自己美丽的花朵。
Posted by : Ellepo
她把我比喻成大树，而她和Liang是大树上盛开着的美丽花朵。
随着日子的流逝，岁月增长，我的健康起了很多大大小小的警钟。我向来固执，也粗心大意，忽略了许多发生在自己身上的问题。
曾经有位医生对我说过，我是属于柚木身形，外表扎实坚固，一旦倒下就永无机会再翻身。要我多注意健康，保重身体。免得不幸倒下时，一切都已迟了。
当时我吱吱唔唔的点头，过后每天忙忙碌碌的生活，把自己搞得喘不过气来，又把医生的话给忘得一干二净了。
最近感觉很累，偏头痛又开始攻击我，害我坐也不是，站也不安，晚上也睡不好。Jane和Liang两姐弟看了很担心。很多家务事能帮的都帮，以减轻我的负担。又给我按摩捶背，让我舒服一点。Jane还一直劝我有不舒服就要看医生，小病不治，怕成为大病啊!
“你一直以来都只为我们姐弟着想，做什么事情都是为了我们，从不好好对待自己。你是我们的大树，万一你倒了，我和弟弟该怎么办? 我们都需要你，要和你永远在一起的”。
对不起Jane,我没想到这一点，让你操心了。你说的对，爱你们最基本的一件事就是先要学会爱我自己。我好，你们也跟着好啊!
答应你，我会尽力保护这棵大树，不会让它倒下来，直到你们这两棵小树屈壮长大，成为大树，开出属于你们自己美丽的花朵。
Posted by : Ellepo
Thursday, 1 April 2010
Tears of pain and loss
Though it had been 20 years since her death, I wept and have severe headache when it comes to this time of the year. It brought me back to when I was prepared for my struggles with her illness and her death.
During the time of her sickness, my heart ruptured. Cindy was sick and very weak, but she hang onto life. I was thinking : If it were GOD's will to take her, I rather let her go then to suffer with tubes inserting into her head and all over her body merely to keep her alive.
I still remember sitting by her beside rubbed her little hands, kissed her and whispered to her with broken heart : it's okay to die ........ inside my heart there were a million "No"s, I still had to force myself to let go.
She closed her eyes and peacefully died. I held her tightly as she died. No words could explain my pain and loss.......
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal.
Thanks GOD I am blessed with lovely Jane & Liang to keep me going ........
Mary Cindy - mummy's girl. I love you and miss you very very much!
May eternal rest grant unto her O Lord, and let perpetual light shine on her.
Posted by : Ellepo
During the time of her sickness, my heart ruptured. Cindy was sick and very weak, but she hang onto life. I was thinking : If it were GOD's will to take her, I rather let her go then to suffer with tubes inserting into her head and all over her body merely to keep her alive.
I still remember sitting by her beside rubbed her little hands, kissed her and whispered to her with broken heart : it's okay to die ........ inside my heart there were a million "No"s, I still had to force myself to let go.
She closed her eyes and peacefully died. I held her tightly as she died. No words could explain my pain and loss.......
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal.
Thanks GOD I am blessed with lovely Jane & Liang to keep me going ........
Mary Cindy - mummy's girl. I love you and miss you very very much!
May eternal rest grant unto her O Lord, and let perpetual light shine on her.
Posted by : Ellepo
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