Embracing Imperfection

Feeling sad and emo over something that happened last weekend, it made me recall this incident...
I still remember that time I was about the age of ten...
Jee was not feeling well and pa prepared for dinner...
I remember that evening in particular because that dinner was prepared by pa after a long, hard day at work.
Pa placed a plate of burnt egg omelette in front of Jee. I was waiting to see if Jee noticed. Yet all Jee did was smiled at pa and asked me how my day was at school.
I couldn't recall what I told her but I do remember watching her finished up the egg omelette.
When I got up from the table, I heard pa apologised to Jee for burning the eggs.
I'll never forgotten what Jee said : Don't worry pa, I love burnt eggs!
Later that night, I went to kiss Jee good night and I asked her if she really liked the burnt egg. She hugged me and said : your papa had a hard day at work and he's really tired. A little burnt omelette won't hurt anyone! Life is full of imperfect things and imperfect people. I'm also not the best housekeeper or cook.
What I've learned from Jee is "Learning to accept each other's faults and differences is very important in order to create a healthy, growing and lasting relationship - the same goes to whatever type of relationships".
An internal injury takes place if I only remember the love and time that I had put in and all the hurts that I'd received.
I don't want to put my happiness in someone else's pocket but into my own. I am the one having the power to choose. No one can force me to feel how I want to feel.
I choose to forgive, forget and to accept.
People will always forget what we have done or said, but they will never, ever forget how the way we have made them feel - both good and bad.

Posted by : Wing

我爱他...

~"His subtle craziness has been left behind in one of the train carriages
The air in underground train is heavier than memories
The whole city has been waiting for me
There is a relationship that is still drifting about
I love his zeal the most
My dreams has been cruelly shattered yet I cannot forget
For him I once believe that tomorrow would mean the future
No matter how bad the situation may be
I refused to come to my senses
I love him till I stumbled into despair
My heart has been deeply hurt yet I cannot forget
We no longer belong in this place
What initially used to be paradise has now become absurd..."

Posted by : Wing

A Message from You...

~"Do not be anxious about anything. In everything resort to prayer and supplication together with thanksgiving and bring your request before God." Philippians 3:6
"Call me and I shall answer. I will reveal to you great and mysterious things you have not known." Jeremiah 33:3
在这全新的一天，就把过去抛开一边，拥抱现在和未来，好吗?未来是充满希望的，现在就等着你去寻找和创造出这些希望!加油!!!~
Thanks a lot for your word of advise... You will always be my "Glass Protector"... =)
May God loves you and showers you with His abundant blessings...

Posted by : Wing

再见了，我的梦。。。

强忍着的泪水，放学时一坐进车里便忍不住涌出来。。。

终于到了跟我从小便立志的梦想说声永别了。。。

小时候，我常幻想自己在一间舒服且备有冷气的房里，给有烦恼的小孩和女人辅导与聆听他们的心事。。。

一直以来我的心灵第六感都十分准确，而且有时会因自己过渡准确的灵感觉得害怕。。。

但是这次，我完全没有任何灵感会得到JPA奖学金。。。意料中该是凶多吉少。。。
其实要得到这奖学金对我来说是一件很不可能的事。(I know very well that I cannot get it coz my result is not as good comparatively, but I still hope for the best. At the end, I really didn't get it... I am quite disappointed...)

没关系啦! 我相信God是另有安排的。。。=) 我会努力，留在Kuching, 也是另一条出路。

我会珍惜和家人朋友在一起的美好时光。。。

Jee & Liang, 谢谢你们的关心和爱护，替我着急，替我紧张。。。我们会永远在一起。。。

Victor, 皇上不急太监急啊!哈哈!刚刚你帮我上网看成绩，我真的好感动。是啊，现在我可以留在 Swinburne 和你们大家一起念书喽!

Jacqueline, 不忍心让你成为班上唯一的女生，以后的日子我都会陪着你。。。(跟你联合起来对付Ah Bong。。。也可以偷偷望我们的帅哥。。。Haha!!! xD)

Wei Zhung & Ah Kong, gentlemen, 真不懂我没拿到JPA 你们还这么开心。。。难道忘了我常常搭你们的顺风车吗? 从今天开始，别想逃避载我的责任哦! =P

Malvin, Richmond & Simon, there will be lots of chances for us having lunch together. Take turns to treat me and Jac yea? Simon 又要为我们破例闯过马路，不用天桥了。。。(慢慢来，别紧张，马路如虎口，看右，看左，再看右，没有车，才好过! 哈哈! xD)

唉，真过份，眼角湿湿的，心里难过极了，Ms Helena 还请吃 Cup Cakes，像是庆祝我落选。不过还瞒好吃的。。。xD

Ssssssssssssssssssoooooooooooooooooooo..... 只好接受事实。。。

Bye bye Psychologist Jane, hello Business Woman...

Posted by : Wing

唯一的礼物

看到五张Elleby很可爱的照片了吗? 哈哈! 原来它出生的背后还有一段小小的故事，也算是她生命中的一个插曲。。。

是缘分吧，他们被安排相遇相逢，后相识。。。

那时Boulevard新开张，他把多年放在除藏室里‘热眠’的脚踏车搬出来清理，然后到富丽华买下了刚出生不久的Elleby。。。

那时在学校，她正因肚子痛而无力流泪，把他给吓坏了。。。他把包好的礼物(Elleby) 送给她，说是迟来的生日礼物。。。她笑了。。。虽然没说些什么，她心里其实是好惊喜，好感动。。。

她知道他对自己有好感，但未能接受他的好意。他不介意，一直坚持对她好，关心她，爱护她。。。但当她已准备好打开心结时，他却再也回不到过去，没有了那时的感觉。。。轰轰烈烈想拥有她的感觉。。。

他无数次伤害她，有意敷衍她，避开她，提醒她不要对自己抱有任何的希望，但她却坚持的相信她可以挽回这段友谊。。。她成功了。。。他们现在已成为知己，无话不谈的知己。。。

今天她无意间在Boulevard遇见他，得知原来他是去买礼物给朋友。。。是另外一个她吗?她不知道，他也从来不提起。。。她此刻才发觉，Elleby 竟是他送给自己的第一份，也是最后一份礼物。。。 唯一的Elleby。。。唯一的礼物。。。

Posted by : Wing

我想你。。。

‘~一件黑色毛衣，两个人的回忆，雨过之后更难忘记，忘记我还爱你。。。’
知道明天有可能会遇见你，脑海里不断浮现周杰伦的这首歌- 黑色毛衣。。。
常常认为我已忘了所拥有的过去，认为我们已忘了曾经是彼此生命中不可缺的那一位，也忘了那所谓初恋的甜蜜回忆。。。但知道要到学校的那一刻，才发觉自己心里也不是完全没有你。。。
记得那时我们友谊出现状况，我的世界就好像忽然停了下来。我们不再无所不谈，不再温柔小声的叫对方的名字，不再看着对方微笑。。。一切的一切都已改变。。那时我的心真的好痛。。。
是你让我懂得原来吃醋时心里会有酸酸的感觉。。。
是你让我感觉第一次和男生走在一起会有甜甜面红耳赤的滋味。。。
是你使我有苦苦，难受，不能控制自己放声大哭的失态。。。
也是你使我有辣辣，想发火生气的经验。。。
每一次听到这首歌我就会掉泪。不是因为想起你曾经给我的泪和痛，而是为我们友谊的裂痕感到可惜，感到无奈，感到心痛。。。
此刻，我还是想你的。。。

Posted by : Wing

Thanks 小榕! =)

Elo dear buddy!!! xD
想诚心的向你说声 "谢谢"。。。(I know you will be busy with homework in school but I am very sure that you will drop by reading when you are free, since you are the royal fan of my blog... xD haha! and using your name as the title will catch your attention more I supposed. 'wa liao kai!' hahaha!!! xD)
Since the day when I first knew you and the day when we became friends, you are always very caring, loving, kind, polite, tolerate.... and all the other positive words that I cannot think of to describe you better. You are always very patient with me and all my problems and won't mind to listen to me whenever I need you. You are willing to be with me for my sorrow, happiness and craziness... This really makes me touched.
I love you dear... =) Thanks so much for being you (The one I really need as my best friend)... And I truely appreciate and treasure the times we had together. I promise that I will introduce you to Jacqueline some day. Both of you are very nice girls and friends. Hope that we can stay as friends for life.

Posted by : Wing

Apology

Jee, I apologise for my bad and rude attitude these few days. I know that I should be more caring and considerate instead of behaving the other way round and makes you sad or uncomfortable. I realised that you are not feeling well but still, I escaped my duty to be a good girl...
Jee, I am terribly sorry! =(

Posted by : Wing

Dinner- 8 May 2010

Look at Papa, he is always hunting for nuts... xD


My two mummies were in red! Beautiful le... I love both of you... Muaks... =)

Girl and Ginger looked sooo hungry. "When will the dinner be served?"

Tada... Our food!!!

Spinach noodle... Popeye's food... Nice!

Cold dish... Only six prawn balls for seven of us. Short of one ball... Jee joked with the waiter saying that they miscounted one. So... Any two of us will have to fight for one... Haha!!!

Sea cucumber soup. Yummy... They gave extra one bowl... Have to teach them simple arithmetic liao... How to count 1, 2, 3.... Alamak!

This is the so called 'Season pork ribs'... Pa complaint no ribs wor... All the thick three-layer pork. Eeeeeee..... Fat fat...

Satay prawn... Yeah! My favourite.. Pity Liang, he never appreciate seafood with legss.. Seems that Girl doesn't take prawn too... So I enjoyed with Ginger lo... Untung the two of us...

Steamed fish. Don't know the name of the fish... The fish head looked so ugly and terrible.. Aaaaahhhhh!!!! Jee seemed to like it... Sigh. Miao Mama...

Broccoli with mushroom. Vegetarian dish I supposed. I don't like it... =P

Last dish of the night. Dessert... Cute but tasteless...

Overall, I rate the food 3 out of 5... Haha! Ok lar.

Posted by : Wing

感恩季节

五月，一个很美的月份。

在这充满爱的感恩季节，让我们好好反思父母对我们的养育苦心。

感谢他们一路来对我们的照顾和所作的一切牺牲，也别忘了我们在天的母亲--圣母玛丽亚。

在这温馨感恩的季节里，多念几次圣母玫瑰花经吧!

"万福玛丽亚，您充满圣宠，主与你同在，你在妇女中受赞颂，你的亲子耶稣同受赞颂。

天主圣母玛丽亚，求你现在和我们临终时，为我们祈求天主，阿们..."

Posted by : Wing

Jee's Day!!!

Happy Mothers' Day, Jee!!! It's a special day to you and all mothers on earth. Thanks God as I am very grateful to be born as Jee Jee's lovely 'baby'... Haha!
Jee, words cannot describe how much I appreciate you... I remember Ah Mah told me before I was as big as a newly born kitten when I was first brought to this world... Without your unconditional love, care, sacrifices and tears, I won't be who I am today- a sweet, lovely young lady with ideal weight and height.(hey, this is what people say about me...) xD
Don't worry Jee! I will take good care of myself and do my very best in everything. I will stay healthy, happy and live life to the fullest! Cheers...
God loves you... And I love you too... =)

Posted by : Wing

成长

Every time I see tears in your eyes, I only feel like hugging you tight.
It's okay to me, Jane.
Crying doesn't mean that you are weak, you are just showing your true feelings.
I understand life gets really hard and painful sometimes, but learn how to forgive, accept and most importantly love yourself.
People change, things change. Pain and hurts do go away and happiness will be the other side.
I know you can do better.
I support you!
一路来，陪着你成长。你笑，我跟着笑。你哭，我就打开双臂抱着你，让你哭，陪你哭。可你千万别把心事隐藏心里，自己难过。
成长会经历很多个人生阶段，而每个阶段都会出现不同的朋友，所学习到的人生经验也不一样。不要害怕，勇敢的去面对和享受过程罢!
成长背后虽然藏着无数的泪水，叹息，付出，牺牲，失望，让步和悲哀(WOW! all are negative expressions), 可我也看到成长让你变得更成熟，更懂得人情世故，也更漂亮动人。
Jane, 不管受了任何委屈，别忘了，Ellepo 的手臂永远为你而开。
Ellepo支持你， 加油!

Posted by :Ellepo

Jee, Ellepo

I remembered myself crying everytime you leave Kuching to work since I was young... Either after sending you to the airport with papa or on the bed at night when you were not with me. I always cannot make myself to get used to life without you around me... And I don't want to get used to that...
I don't care if people said I am so realiable on you or I am the "mummy's daughter type of girl". I just like to stick with you wherever I go and whatever I do... I love you and miss you so much, Jee!!! Life is so dull without seeing you everyday...
Come back quick!!! =)

Posted by : Wing

God's Tears, My Tears...

I was touched...

Many things happened to me these few days... God gave me challenges but He guided me all the way through to overcome them... He lifted me up with His strength and power. Praise the Lord!

Being able to stay alive, I feel that many people actually love and care for me. My family members, relatives and friends...

Thanks to Jee and Anthony, I joined today's sunset mass in St Joseph Cathedral. We prayed Rosary together after the mass. I thank God and Mother Mary silently in my heart for giving me another chance to treasure everyday I have with all those whom I love and care for before leaving. Father Simon said that we should love everyone around us just like how Jesus shows His great love to us. This really touches my heart.

It started raining when halfway through the mass. I could not explain why but I feel that it was God's tears. I started shedding tears too and I can feel that I was very closed to Him at that very moment. This suddenly strikes me. Life is all about love. God loves me very much and so do everyone who cares for me. I know that He wants me to love people around me like how He loves me.

I remembered what Kenny told me last time. He said that we were born into this world to spread the words of God and to serve Him. There is also a saying that goes : " If we cannot love the person whom we see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see? ". To show our love to God, we must first love people around us.

Do not hesitate to show your love to those whom you really care for before it is too late... =)

'Life is all about LOVE!' I found a piece of love shaped 'cha kueh' when I ordered it for dinner just now.

This sweet looking girl is Jacqueline. She was the one who saved me. We both have darker coloured skin compared to all the soya bean drinkers in our class. =P The most important thing is that she also has a 'baby' which she carries with her everyway she goes. Haha!!!

Our babies! Giraffe Baby and Elleby Baby... Elleby found his true friend at last. Haha! Like mother like son. My baby looks smaller in size and weaker (coz he seems so cold with his blanket on). Jacqueline said so too. She always feels that she wants to protect me like how her baby protect Elleby. Nice! =)

Posted by : Wing